My views on God come from a life led down many paths - not all of them wholesome. At various times, my relationship with God suffered. I've been angry with God. I've screamed at the top of my lungs at the man and cursed him. Given some of my behaviors, I'm confident he shared and directed those same emotional outbursts towards me. That's part of this essay, God's emotions. He has them. When God loses his temper, he either chooses to ignore us and let us flail in outcomes of our own making, or he acts out in anger. In the modern vernacular, God has anger management issues. God also holds infinite compassion and love. The duality of God's personality (Yes, he has one) is telling and reinforces my hope and faith. I appreciate my father shares a real emotional bond with me.
As my perspective and emotions towards God changed over time, my relationship with him changed too. God is my (our) father. He's Dad... the Old Man. Pops. I see no disrespect using these words. They are affectionate terms and qualify to help keep the commandments to love God. When I pray, I speak to him as I did my deceased, earthly father - W.M.. W.M. was also a man of few words and rigid, absolute, views on most topics. I'm confident he and God have interesting conversations regarding me and my behaviors - past and present. God has undoubtedly informed my father on some my actions he did not learn while alive. That's either a discussion that frames my eternal judgment or one where they laugh in unison at my feeble efforts, convoluted faith, and the frustration arising from my humanity.
My humanity... What a remarkable blessing. Every person has the potential to bask in the joy of their humanity and the source of joy - the love from their spiritual father. I understand why many do not. I've been where they are. Most reject God's love and the joy attending that love because they have appetites they love more than God. Or, their love for God was destroyed in what they conclude was God's abandonment of them or a family member. There may be other reasons but I believe a majority fit one of these two reasons. I experienced both. The later was transformative - the source of my greatest frustration, anger, and separation from God.
Despite my abandoning God, and rejecting his influence in my life, God blessed me. In retrospect, I could not resolve his actions – considering my behaviors. Dad came through anyway. He helped me overcome my quandary because he loves me. God's design – the rules for the universe and mankind - proscribes he must wait on us to act. We must approach him. You must invite God into your life and heart. There are physical reasons for this reality and we will explore them. But let's investigate these two reasons/rationalizations many people adopt to free themselves from the obligations God placed upon us all.
Appetites come in so many versions they cannot be all counted. Sex, food, drugs, attires, displays of wealth, oppression, and hate are some examples that drive man away from God. Man believes feeding the appetite will improve their lives, or make them feel better. Feeding the appetite provides a momentary high or thrill or sates an emotional or physical want. These wants are often declared NEEDs - to rationalize and equivocate. The same way people on the political Left gratuitously declare opportunities are - Rights - the very same mental perspective often claims a "thing" they desire to have is a Need. It is not. A Need is a something required to sustain life. Most human appetites are not required to sustain life, and the others that are required, are fed in quantities that exceed what is required. Therein the problem manifests.
God has delivered to us, his offspring, several lists of commandments that ban the appetites of man – for our, and society's benefit. Some people will not tolerate having their appetites curbed or removed. At some point they chose the appetite over God. Some attempt to straddle the conflict (count me as one who did). They work to rationalize their behaviors; arising feeding their appetites. Rationalization can assume innumerable, self serving, forms:
it’s not that bad…
man and mankind have changed, God wouldn’t make that rule today…
who am I hurting but myself…?
Or… by adherence to a set of behaviors sanctioned by man - everyone does it…
Or… by overtly removing God from their lives - using volition.
The murder of God by Darwin and his benefactors; a death sanctioned, committed, and perpetuated by science and neo-intellectuals, is grasped by many as it permits indulging their appetites. If God is dead, there are no commandments. "Deitracide" removes man from any Godly obligation places man in complete control. Man's allegiance is thus owed to himself and/or his cohorts. Morality dies alongside God. Appetites are freed from consideration and consequence.
The other group who turn away from God, usually so do after a significant tragedy enters their life. (Every event that leads to this outcome is a tragedy and profound loss). This form of voluntary is a matter entirely removed from the appetite driven separation. In this circumstance, people who once loved God in some capacity face a life altering event. The event emotionally destroys them - irreconcilably so. They blame God for the bad outcome; for not caring; for not paying enough attention to their lives to prevent, or lessen, the severity of the bad event. These people frame the event in stark, very personal, terms. They interpret the bad outcome as proof of a purposeful attack upon them – by God. They usually consider their past behaviors serving and worshipping God as meaningful – as examples and reasons for why God should have interceded and protected them. Their unrequited grief consumes them and they act out hoping to release their emotions and inflict punishment upon the entity and/or person they blame for the outcome. Sorrow foments anger and rage.
Those two emotions are powerful. They spoil hearts and warp reasoning. This type of reasoning projects God as capable of, and obligated (based upon God’s love referenced in the scriptures and man’s interpretation of that emotion) to protect them - as they predict love would motivate any parent. This short-sighted reasoning presumes much and ignores reality; the limits and laws that guide the universe through it courses. God ordained those laws. They limit God's actions and ability to act – by design.
Whenever God intercedes and acts – he must transcend the laws and limits of accrued, resident energy and controlling equations that govern and rule not only our lives, but every other scrap of matters in the universe. Extreme consequences typically result from God's acting. Those consequences can be likened to a thermo-nuclear pinball – smashing its way through every obstacle it encounters. Controlling the reactions of his actions creates huge amounts of work for God. Occasionally, due to the veracity, scope and type of laws in place, God cannot contain all the negative consequences. More bad things then occur – to other people - and the physical reality framing their lives.
Yes, God is omnipotent, but his design of the universe, and the laws that make the universe operate, are purposeful; they restrict God’s power and influence - by design. These can be likened to the obstacles placed in our own lives. God too, must overcome obstacles in his eternal progression.
I imagine our father grieving during the times his ability to act is hampered. Importantly, the design requires us to exercise faith in his judgment. The universe's design additionally requires we love and worship God throughout the course of negative trials that cross our life paths. These trials provide significant opportunities; to learn, and improve ourselves. We must never forget about the limits that obtain throughout the universe as they contain all of our wishes - including God's love and patience for us.
Imagining the dynamics, what happens when God sees man, or mankind, suddenly turn away from him, must span the breadth of emotions – like any father. Being a perfected being must amplify the emotional impact. Historically, these events move God. The scriptures detail times when God sought to curry mankind’s favor using the earthly rewards contained in blessings: prosperity, health, etc. Conversely, should man’s behaviors not change, another aspect of God’s emotions further engage - seeking to discipline his offspring. God knows the horrific consequences that await those behaviors. If Man's behaviors remain, or expand and intensify, God's concern must grow acute. Worry - confounded and troubled over his children's refusal to acknowledge his blessings; or to worship consumes more of God's attention.
Since God and mankind exist separated, and the distance between them immense, God literally moves on a different time table. His actions and emotions often appear slow to manifest. Concordantly, man is slow to respond – presupposing man is motivated to so do. The combination visits dire and unfortunate results.
God is Alpha and Omega - and Eternal. His plan for us, his love and mercy, is offered us from God's domain. They far exceed man’s sensory abilities and sensibilities - by comparison. God's commandments are few, purposeful, and well designed. God wants us to hold the benefits from living those commandments.
I personally believe his commandments came from the negative outcomes that arose in God’s life – when he endured a human existence, and didn't adopt the behaviors specified in the commandments.
The loving father in him, and his knowledge of man's physical constitution; how that physicality prompts behaviors within the environment surrounding us, individually and collectively, proscribed the commandments God issued. Commandments are literally for our own good. They promote joy and harmony among men. They serve as literal examples of a man’s faith, works, and the love obeying the commandments expresses towards God. How well man followed God’s commandments will be one topic discussed when we are judged/evaluated for placement in the afterlife.
The Physical Aspects of God and Man
Our physical senses acquire the information contained in the environment around us (and more) by making use of (or creating) a flow of electrons and photons. All of our physical senses use a nerve path to transfer the signal created by: sight, touch, taste, etc... These interact with physical matter and are permanently placed in our brain. The contents of our souls, the totality of our life experiences, reside and accrue as electrons during our lifetimes. Indeed, past sensory input and new information acquired reside in the brain as electrical "data". We recall/use past information to create new thoughts. Theoretically, new thoughts are new arrangements of information/electrons collected earlier. That's one of a host of Life phenomena science cannot explain. If, as the phenomena suggests, the previous memory remains, a very complex relationship is formed or exists. OR..., new matter emerges from the interaction(s). Science cannot explain how this happens or why.
The processes and systems with the human body are a complex and amazing gift. We can agree the presence of electrons in the human body is requisite for life. Science, every rational mind agrees, when that electrical activity ceases, a person is "clinically" dead.
Science is rigid and stubborn in their beliefs. They must be in certain circumstances. Unfortunately, money and notoriety combine to influence a discipline whose published credo rightly rejected those motivations. Credibility and personal gain are antithetical - if only as a matter of perception. Science chose to re-evaluate that practice during the past half century. It now contains all the components of any international organization, and the petty personal pursuits and conflicts therein. Every large organization requires unanimity and allegiance on certain matters. These control and limit membership; to better homogenize the organization's public persona - to properly position it for alignment with other disciplines. Adequate funding is an escalating pressure in today's increasingly costly societies. Advanced technologies and exploration tools grow more expensive as regulations, the working margins, and error tolerances shrink. Allocating funding where the potential for the greatest gains presents practical considerations - including a narrowed focus is prudent. Some FACTS are codified and never revisited - unless... doing that threatens continued funding or profound embarrassment.
Darwin's Theory mandated science concludes "Life" had no external influences. Once the tools needed to analyze the components and quantities needled, and their arrangement, science set out to prove their hypothesis - life can erupt anywhere - even in harsh and bizarre conditions. When life was discovered in these unexpected environs, and the normal places science anticipated life, science concluded life was durable, adaptable, and could originate virtually anywhere - providing the absolutes for life criterion were arranged. Life spontaneously erupting must be a super simple phenomenon. Science organized an experiment to prove their hypothesis. They combined certain matter in the proper proportions and energize it with an electrical spark - emulating how science believed life erupted on the early earth and... WALLAH!!!… Viscous black goo materialized. Science's analysis showed the goo contained the “building blocks” for life – compounds very close to amino acids – but not quite. The goo was void of life, but the confounded scientists asserted the black goo contained matter essential to life - provided other variables were somehow satisfied and additional actions materialized - spontaneously.
Science can crudely measure the amount of electricity, areas of the brain stimulated by the electrons, some of the physical consequences arising, the extent of stimulation, and how cells react to the electron stimulation. Science lacks the technology to interpret the electrons/photons of life and how they confederate in thoughts. We humans can remember past events and be similarly stimulated and emotionally "moved". We can recall past sensory input and our thoughts re-interpret the data. They may be emotionally stimulated – become invigorated, sad, happy, or another response. We can use past determinations of logic, re-analyze that data, to create an entirely new perspective, including a new set of options or consideration.
The scriptures also reference the importance genetic lineage. Vast amounts of information are recorded detailing lineage. Lineage must be important for chronology and the potential implications that may impact other areas must not be ignored. Lineage equates to blood and genetics - and likely other matter/conditions. If our spirits must be uniquely tuned for our bodies, and that body type is a product of lineage, specific conditions for the electron stream necessary for life - based upon lineage - may be extremely important. Blood, and its relationship to electrons and life, is a mandatory object of study - to learn the biological relationships that enable our spirits functions; and to gain insight on the environment where the electron interactions occur and why.
Free Agency was the first gift God provided us. Behaviors are the actions resulting and following the choice(s) made. Choice is central to becoming properly aligned with God's commandments and the outcomes predicated. We CHOOSE from the options our thoughts create. Each man, has the opportunity to choose each time they think. Science has not yet grasped how and why this occurs - nor does it appear science holds an interest in that area. Like gravity, I believe the processes and matter that combine to create human thought will evade and confound science until they adopt broader limits of study, or God permits that information known.
Electrons/photos are remarkable objects of matter. Physicists know these objects can occupy the same space simultaneously; change states – photon to electron and back (virtually at will); and they communicate information - to name a few capabilities. My interpretation of the evidence found in the double slit experiment suggests electrons/photons may show sentience; they can learn, and/or adapt from the actions of their electron predecessors or the environment. I assert currently undetected and unknown types of electrons / photons are essential for most forms of life.
The proposition that common particles of matter (more correctly Waves of matter) will/can randomly arrange, so if the matter is deposited into a lump of flesh/brain, a wholly inimitable intellect is created; defies so many scientific principles and laws it presents a problem. This is a problem so profound; it is best avoided (and usually is) by any organization who defiantly proclaims no eternal "Creator" entity exists. The organization will use technological advances and accrued observations and conclusions from the approved list of professional colleagues, to further assert no entity is responsible for creating life. More, they confidently assert, as impossibility, an entity being capable of creating life, and/or designing life systems and functionality parameters, and/or controlling the matter contained in our universe. Information that challenges or refutes the organization's primary thesis, or the mission designed around it, is ignored, dismissed, (mis)interpreted and misrepresented, and ridiculed - to nullify conclusions that undermine the validity of the thesis.
Obviously, choosing God-lessness creates problems of its own making.
When we think, using random particles of electrical matter - we Create. This process reveals there is something unique about the electrons/photons within the human body. And..., since these exclusive elements of matter are used to create new thoughts and potentially create new matter, gives evidence as probable, in my view, electron/photons present in the human body, are sentient or significantly different from the electrons/photons observed in other locations.
When you are prompted by the Holy Ghost – that inexplicable sense of warmth and inspiration – God’s message, he imparts information unto you - using an emissary. You are provided with solutions to your questions when this occurs. God literally sends his emissary with electrons specifically designed for your use. When you’re able to receive them, by keeping the commandments, you experience your heavenly father’s love and direction. I pray you also see God’s instructions and love in the form of electrons must be invited – otherwise... you sacrifice your free agency.
Take comfort in Dad’s love and instruction. It is real. It is undeniable. When your mind is open to consider what the physical evidence available may mean; if your mind is not closed, due to secular allegiances/ dogma created for the expressed purpose of eliminating a Creator/God, your life can improve in profound and meaningful ways.
You are filled with the same eternal matter as our father. You literally share a physical bond with your maker. Your life is uniquely crafted for your use - culled from God's life energy - and THAT is how he is able to influence your life.